Brain Damage......My brains damaged..... it hurts like never before......
someone hammered it maybe..... someone still knowing it all and still hammering it..... "dimag ke nus"
Hate dumb people and then I realize I am the dumbest of them all.....
They knew I was hurt..... they knew it will happen... they knew it all.....
I am the fool... I am the Ass...... (hey! why self pity boosts my ego... :)....)
I keep repeating the words.... "I am an Ass..... yes! A Big Fat Ass"
My brain's damaged the day I knew I was born...... and it is soooo damn difficult to live with a damage brain...... Some days you hate everyone and some days you feel as if you should love and kiss everyone......
I had a friend who always used to say "Geek! Plz stop your self pity drama......" and move on in life.... move on!!! move on!! move on!! Kaiseen yaar???
How will i be able to move on? I am so stuck..... I am glued.... the moments dont leave me.... they dont make peace anywhere these days..... and then I feel bahut ho gaya self pity get going now..... Move on!!
Nways I love the ad of Fasttrack "Move on!" Achhha hain...... but so difficult to move on in real life...... maybe I am too much deep down....
You know it happened like this.... there was this road and everyone told me "Geek! try that road it has a hole and you will fall...... Learn from the experience of others..... See! Sohan... See! Mohan... they all have fallen and rite now have broken ribs... broken arms and broken teeths... yeah! they cant even smile.... Dont go dear!!!"
But I was so adamant...... I was like "Horse Sh*t! I will go.... I have chosen the road and surely I will go..... I mean that is my destiny..... I have to go by that Road...... I understand Sohan and Mohan situation..... but let me try! let me experience it..... and here I go......"
So I took the Road less travelled and BOOM! here I am deep down..... "Deep wala mara God ne!" Still can't come to normal terms..... Still feel so let down... still feel so low.... still feel so numb......
No doubt! I am ---- Brain Damage!
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